How much ecstasy can I handle? I guess someone might call this a rhetorical question. But, for me, the answer is always “As much as I’m willing to allow in each moment”. As I sit in this coffee shop, there is loud conversation and construction and dish washing. But, behind all of this, a song is playing that is expanding the boundaries of my ecstasy limits. Is it the song? Or when my beloved texted me about a bed quilt seen in a store? Or when my friend stopped to say “Hello”? Or when I thought of you knowing you would read this story? Ecstasy is our natural state and I feel myself breathing into it. If you were to walk in the door, I am sure I would fall deeply into ecstatic bliss. My only reason to be recovered would be to see your face so that I could fall into it again…and again…and again..into an exquisite prison of love.
Watching my beloved dance in front of me. I fell into bliss watching her. When I watched her dance, I was realizing…”Here I go…I’m falling” just realizing what she was doing for me and what was being done. It reminded me of a painting I once saw. A young, beautiful, veil dancer was dancing for a room full of Sultans. She could have been a slave and painted with an expression of agony. But instead, Lord Krishna (a Hindu deity) was the one pulling her veils, causing her to spin in her dance. She was in an ecstatic trance. Like the painting, This woman dancing for me was ascending into the divine feminine in front of my eyes. I was witnessing divine love. Such deep, eternal love was in her dance. She was dancing in love with her body and the dance and loving me at the same time. There seemed to be only one being in the room. I was thinking that I wasn’t sure I could witness her dance in public, unless I just embraced what is and allowed others to experience me falling again into bliss.
A few days later, I rode my bicycle home, while listening to songs from the band U2. As I reached the driveway, I threw my bike down and fell to my knees where I stood…more weeping as the indescribable joy of bliss took me over. Though, to others it may look like sadness. It’s actually both joy and sadness at the same time. Joy of this bliss happening now and sadness that it was hidden to me. But, then bliss again, realizing that it will never be hidden again and that this is where I start to live the rest of my life.
Later that same day, while watching the foreign film As It Is In Heaven, with friends, I was overcome again into deep, uncontrollable convulsions of weeping, spasms, joy, laughter, shaking. When my friends would speak, I fell in love with their voices and, of course, great love for them. Their unconditional love was helping me to recover, but also allowing me to embrace the experience. I couldn’t look at them for several moments. I knew that I would fall back into ecstatic bliss.
Breathe…DEEPER.
Accept…EVERYTHING.
Love…MORE.
“Lord, take from me what I do.
Take from me what I need.
Take from me everything
that takes me from you.
Fill me with your love.
Liberate my Soul.”
I challenge you to live in love. Go through your day and find ways to raise your vibration and experience more love. I challenge you to reject temptations to watch the negative news, to not listen to or be a part of conversations that stay in the muck. Only allow your attention to be gained by creations that lift you up. There are so many opportunities to listen to or watch things that are supposed to be important to you, that are presented as critical to your awareness of the state of the world. This is a lie. Even if there is not a “cabal” or an “elite” group of super-wealthy, super-powerful people wanting the masses to be “dumbed down” and existing in a constant state of fear and worry. Even if there wasn’t an agenda to control and medicate human beings. You have a choice. You have a choice to snap out of it, to wake up from the dream and not accept what is presented to you. This is how the world changes and evolves and it has evolved. The media stream wants you to believe a theme that says that you are helpless. Once you start to disconnect from this stream (it’s never too late), you will start seeing the world in a different light. This is not the same as putting on “rose-colored glasses”. You will start to see the lies. You will smile and, with love, say “No” or like my friend, Jim, says (in his best Indian accent) “You may keep your gift”. So, yes, the reality presented to you is the default movie that is showing. Change your inner world and the movie will change. The state of the world is inside of you.